Bars For My Mother

Mom...
I apologize for everything that I've become
I'm nothing but a selfish being who forgot where he comes from
So along the patterns of these drums I hope you'll understand
That seeing you in pain is something I can't really witshtand
I know it's hard, I know you'e scarred and feeling under the weather
So with this letter, I hope you realize that you deserve better
Took you for granted as I didn't fathom your true value
Tears of blood shed from your eyelids for everytime we argued
Tried pleasing variables while forgetting my life's main constant
I write this with tears as my pain and regret remain constant
I write this with tears smudging the ink I squeeze on this paper
I just wish our bad memories would all disappear like vapour
I'm not perfect, nor are you .. but your love is real and true
And that's all that really matters in my humble point of view
I'm sorry, I hope that my apology can tear down this wall
Much love to the only woman who was there through it all

The Repentance

I grief ..
Being convinced to drowning into disbelief
Betrayed my army just to please the opposition's chief
Left the angels on the bench while I danced with the devils
Finding it hard to escape my sins on many different levels
Forsakened my only hope to stop the struggle in a second
Reconed that the devil's ways are tough to decypher and fecund
Thrown on the throne of blasphemy thus I strive to atone
I write this with tears streaming down my cheak bone
With regret choking me and blame bleeding from my wrists
Never thought my narcissistic ways would lead me down to this
I sold my soul to the devil in a moment of despair
I sold my soul to the cause of my pain for a cheap fare
Condemned my self to a life long, eternal sentence
So I write this as my last hope for divine repentance
Shrouded In fear, as that was the wrong person to offend
I'll just keep hoping wings of punishment would choose to ascend..

Take Care,